I LOVE YOU

                                                      It was just another night with a heavy rain which took the sound of me crying. I still doesn't have a slightest idea why am I doing this as I know that you hate me with all your life. I had taken a vow that I will hate you if stop thinking about you just for a moment in a day. But no, it won't be an easy task for me. I don't know what you think about me and I don't care. I never know what happens next, can't regret several years later. After all these events I never told you what I felt. Actually, I cheated you, by sending you those messages as my sister. I just wanted to know what you felt about me. I really am sorry about that. But you know what she told me "It will be a joke after many years when you  tell him." But I couldn't keep the secret and it turned out to be a tragedy. I never regret that. I would never have the courage to tell you otherwise. I was and am a joke to some Teachers and some students. I was really angry when I heard them speaking about me and the source for them might be you. When I thought about it further, it came to me that I really do matter to you, may be that's why you tell them about me. Anyway I am Sorry for everything. 

I just can't help anymore, really need to tell you this even before its more late. I am saying this to you for the first and maybe last time.

I LOVE YOU

Wish I will not be a joke anymore. Thank you if you are reading this. Will not be a disturbance anymore.

SECRET

                                                I was thinking about secret. A secret can make anything happen in this world. It can make a baby birth and even kill a person. Our world itself is a secret sometimes. 

Does anyone experienced the pressure of any secret ? Once in a life you should have. The extreme force which your mind will tell you to share your secret with anyone and your heart will go against your mind. Our mind itself is a secret to scientists. When you insert a secret into your mind it analysis it further deep and even develop a story. And it makes you sick inside to let it out to the world or at least to one person. And even if you tell this to anyone lets think about the after effects. It will be worse than World War 2. May be someone might have a secret for creating World War 3, who knows? No one can be trusted.
The mind and heart which contains a secret can be divided into two. As always Men and Women. It is very hard for a woman to carry a secret. But then if am not wrong in the film Titanic, Rose said that "A woman's heart is a deep ocean of secrets." It's also true. Still there are who can't keep a secret. When they tell to someone it will like a huge rock kept down from their head. And on the other hand there are men who can be trusted till they get angry and think about revenge. So it is all about our mind and heart. A secret creates a quarrel between our own heart and mind. It makes feelings change from happy to sad or mad.
Still it is nice to some secret you know. A secret is a telling someone 'I believe in you' (may be not the right one though).
Hear a secret, maintain it, lock it in your heart.