Do you have a Film friend ? Means do you have a 'Film' as a friend? I have, hundreds. Films which will end in happiness, tragedy, sadness, or my favorite 'Happily ever after'. Films which make us happy, sad, angry, anxiety, every human feelings. Films who know you. Films which take you to your own world, where you watch all those scenes in real, My mum always say or scold me to come out of the fantasy world. But will there be a life without fantasy. Our imagination and dreams make us to live this life. Somewhere in our heart we believe that our dreams will come to reality. This hope makes us to live a day more. And in my life films hold a very big hand in my dreams and imagination. Each and every film becomes my life. I will be the heroine and there will be a resemblances to each and every character in film as my family or friends. Or i will make a resemblance. And I live in it. I watch my favorite films hundred times without loosing its anxiety, happiness or sadness. And I can repeat it a thousand times without getting bored. Films just don't change like people, they never change what they say, they show us how our life is, how our life was, and how our life can be. It takes us to a never ending adventure of our own life which may change our life. Make some 'Film' friends. There will be a difference for sure. :)

I thought only I was having this thought that after reading some books we think that we can write a book too. After reading Durjoy Datta's Hold my hand, slowly I figured out that each and everyone who reads more than two or three books will think the same thing. Reading a book may make many difference in our life. As my brother said, Knowledge is a life long asset. As reading  a process it is a complex cognitive process of decoding symbols in order to construct or derive meaning. God...no one read anything if they read this definition. Reading gives us a pleasure which no one can give us, it takes us into a imaginary happy World which will be with all our favorite characters. As Garrison Keillor said "A book is a gift you can open again and again."
One book may have a thousand feelings. One book may teach us thousand lessons. One book may give us a thousand ways to turn in our life. A great book may leave us with many experiences and slightly exhausted, we live several lives while reading.
So just be calm and read a BOOK

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I LOVE YOU

                                                      It was just another night with a heavy rain which took the sound of me crying. I still doesn't have a slightest idea why am I doing this as I know that you hate me with all your life. I had taken a vow that I will hate you if stop thinking about you just for a moment in a day. But no, it won't be an easy task for me. I don't know what you think about me and I don't care. I never know what happens next, can't regret several years later. After all these events I never told you what I felt. Actually, I cheated you, by sending you those messages as my sister. I just wanted to know what you felt about me. I really am sorry about that. But you know what she told me "It will be a joke after many years when you  tell him." But I couldn't keep the secret and it turned out to be a tragedy. I never regret that. I would never have the courage to tell you otherwise. I was and am a joke to some Teachers and some students. I was really angry when I heard them speaking about me and the source for them might be you. When I thought about it further, it came to me that I really do matter to you, may be that's why you tell them about me. Anyway I am Sorry for everything. 

I just can't help anymore, really need to tell you this even before its more late. I am saying this to you for the first and maybe last time.

I LOVE YOU

Wish I will not be a joke anymore. Thank you if you are reading this. Will not be a disturbance anymore.

SECRET

                                                I was thinking about secret. A secret can make anything happen in this world. It can make a baby birth and even kill a person. Our world itself is a secret sometimes. 

Does anyone experienced the pressure of any secret ? Once in a life you should have. The extreme force which your mind will tell you to share your secret with anyone and your heart will go against your mind. Our mind itself is a secret to scientists. When you insert a secret into your mind it analysis it further deep and even develop a story. And it makes you sick inside to let it out to the world or at least to one person. And even if you tell this to anyone lets think about the after effects. It will be worse than World War 2. May be someone might have a secret for creating World War 3, who knows? No one can be trusted.
The mind and heart which contains a secret can be divided into two. As always Men and Women. It is very hard for a woman to carry a secret. But then if am not wrong in the film Titanic, Rose said that "A woman's heart is a deep ocean of secrets." It's also true. Still there are who can't keep a secret. When they tell to someone it will like a huge rock kept down from their head. And on the other hand there are men who can be trusted till they get angry and think about revenge. So it is all about our mind and heart. A secret creates a quarrel between our own heart and mind. It makes feelings change from happy to sad or mad.
Still it is nice to some secret you know. A secret is a telling someone 'I believe in you' (may be not the right one though).
Hear a secret, maintain it, lock it in your heart. 

WHEN I DIE…

What will happen when I die ? Will someone cry ? Of course, my Mom for sure also my dad and sister. Will my other relatives feel anything about me ? Will my friends visit my home to see me for a last time ? Will they cry and scold me ?  Will I die in pain ? An accident ? An incurable disease ?  Heart Attack ? Will someone kill me? Due to old age ? Or worse will I commit suicide ? May be not… What will they do if I die ? Burn me ? But am afraid of fire. In a coffin ? Feels like one will die without catching the last breath. Or worse they will give me to the medical college  to study my inner parts, each and every organs. Still they can't see my inner Heart, they will never know what I feel, what I think and what my heart wants. As per Hindu tradition they will burn me. Still I don't like it. Will I become a Ghost ? A friendly one may be. Or a cruel one ?? Never. It's nice to be a friendly one. No one will see me. Or I can command specific person can see me. I can watch What will happen after I die.  Who will cry who will laugh. Who will praise me ? Who will criticize me? Who loves me ? Who hates me? That will be awesome…

But Will I die soon ?

Am I having an incurable disease ? No

Will I meet with some accident ? Can't say.

Will I have Heart attack ? Probably not.

Will someone kill me ? May be not.

Will I become old soon ? Not in next 40 years.

Will I commit suicide ? Never.

Then why am I thinking like this…….???

Am I mad…? YES… I think so. 

                    1,2,3...Happy New Year

It's strange how our mind wanders.  From things to things, person's to person's, place to place, incident to incident. it's strange why we can't control our own mind why we can't forget some place some person some incident. Life is so strange. We all have an unspeakable secret,  an irreversible secret, an un kept promise, an unheard request, an irreplaceable loss, an unreachable dream, and an unforgettable love…! Still, life is about being happy anyhow… Because everything in life can be summoned up in just three words IT GOES ON… 

Another year is at its end just dropping in to say Happy New Year… May this year bring for your promises of brighter tomorrow. 

                                        ടൈം  മെഷീൻ 

ഒരു ടൈം മെഷീൻ ഉണ്ടായിരുനെങ്കിൽ തിരിച്ചു പോയി ചെയ്ത തെറ്റൊക്കെ തിരുത്താമായിരുന്നു .  അതികമൊന്നും പുറകോട്ടു പോകേണ്ട. കുറച്ചു  കാലം മതി. താൻ ഒരു പെണ്ണ് ആണെന് അതിന്റെ പരിമിതികളും മനസിലാകിയ കാലത്തേക്ക് എത്തിയ മതി. ഓർമ്മയിൽ നിന്ന് പറിച്ചെടുത്തു കളയണം.  പരിചയപ്പെട്ട ആളുകളെ എല്ലാം മറക്കണം. നടന്ന സംഭവമെല്ലാം  മാറ്റിമരികനം. ആ ജീവിതമൊക്കെ ഒന്ന് കൂടി ജീവിക്കണം. ഒരു ടൈം മെഷീൻ അത്യാവശ്യമാണ് അവൾക്ക് ...